How to Stop Living in Survival Mode

“Survival mode” happens when you have a dysfunctional relationship to the self-preservation instinct. Rather than truly providing food, shelter, safety—you catastrophize and generalize about possible futures. In this state, you’re a hamster on a wheel, always hustling to outrun the bad-guy, never gaining ground.

A Family Un-Broken

She said, "Oh that's good, because we don't really have many people of your kind at our school and she'd probably have a hard time fitting in."

"What kind are we?" I asked, completely baffled and wholly curious to see what was about to come out of her mouth.

"You know... broken," she said, shrugging her shoulders and smiling apologetically, "We don't have any broken families at our school."

Oh. Broken.

For Those Who Are Motherless

It was almost my turn to speak. In our close and huddled circle, each person had already spoken in hushed voices and long pauses -- each taking time to go within, to listen and to wait -- bringing forward only what they had found to be true about their experience, sometimes with the look of astonishment as though they had just discovered something they didn't even know they knew. To sit with someone as they tell the truth is to witness something holy, one of the greatest gifts of our shared human experience.

A Quiet Revolution

Towers of white water rolled toward me. Rows of frothing Goliaths moving sideways and forwards, bumping into each other as the wind whipped their white crests of spray high into the air and further toward the western horizon, doubling their size, magnifying the fierceness.

I felt small.

Blindfolded and Sleepwalking

It’s like I closed my eyes for two minutes. Maybe it was just a blink. I swear, it couldn’t have been that long. Fall came and went. My daughter now too old to be taken door to door by her mother, made plans to trick-or-treat with friends. Did we even buy a pumpkin this year? I don’t think so.